Now and on in life there are good and bad days in life. It’s really defines the way the eyes of society pick things. For life every situation can build a bit of traction of anybody’s thoughts let a person to identify himself inside. To be real sometimes this traction of thoughts overrides the peaceful inner voice of self and make things look so desperate. Still I think there are better ways of handling these sort situations and emotions in a better way where a person can get own advantage towards life’s growth.
It’s so real what we think as an individual and also quite true representation of the “Self” if we give it a consideration. Selfness is so real then, but can it be a directly see as we look in to it as group of people? So why it can’t be a illusion to have a selfness? We can look in to selfness in different angle. As humans we individually go through a much similar thought process to give definition to the “self” that each of us are believing in. Evaluating on the stuff we come across in day to day lives our imagination concludes each time that what ever happens is positive and negative to ourselves. Does this groups sounds supporting for us in long run?
So how can we make things happen to us in to simply two groups as good and bad mostly depending on others perspective knowing that each thing happens to us is quite personal and unique? So things what society see in outside may be not the real story inside. So from that I conclude that anyone can have their own definition or justification of doing things where they can estimate that a certain choice is the most correct choice to make at that particular moment.
What I’m concluding towards is for in life events there can’t be things occurring that can grouped in good and bad, everything what happens to ourselves is quite unique where that makes it out of equation to put in good or bad by looking at outward perspective. Good life events are ok to go with feel the happiness it so natural to make our own.
It’s about how we manipulates the situation to our advantage rather than sinking in a conclusion that gave us by the common opinion of the society.
To get this further I trying write up my own life example back in 2007. I have become Software Engineer accidentally to be through. Yes Accidentally, because in my country Sri Lanka where we entertain free education and our thinking patterns growing in a way we have go to best university that we selected sorted according to the payroll and social respect that each degree have. Mostly not by the individual interest of doing things. I had the same scenario where at that time where we are more influenced by the Civil Engineers in my mathematics stream. I did not had the enough score to get in to the Civil Engineer for a free campus really even I didn’t had much passion of it too. It’s the social opinion concluded a boy to be. I liked it be at Moratuwa University which is the best engineering university, much seems to be impossible by the time I’m doing the exams.
So I did the exams and selected to Moratuwa University second time according my thoughts and also random course which I didn’t had control of depending on my results, that course delivers bachelors degree in Information Technology. So I registered there in the information technology degree without knowing much about computing rather than playing some sort of a simple game or playing movie in a computer. But I did know how to assemble with out ever touching a manual in my whole life just by looking at it. It not thing to be proud of but I liked doing it.
After 3 months I have a another letter from University Grant Commission saying that I can register in the degree Quantity Survey in same university which took my family’s attention and they suggested me to register for that. I went there and registered for the new degree and also went on for the classes for two days where one of the administrator lecturer called me to her office and said you have to register again in next year since they have done there academics for three months and start as fresh graduate in next year. This is really a tensed and emotional moment to me, since I have to wait for one year more to get registered to the course of Quantity Survey. I exactly pointed out the reason to the lady lecturer about the situation, the reason for being this matter is due to Quantity Survey Department cancelling there orientation program of first 3 months which is common practice of every faculty, aiming to be much effective with there timelines which make students like me to be victim of a conflict in between two timelines and protocols. She had nothing to say and directly gave a meeting with dean saying “We can’t handle your talks, go and meet the Dean of faculty tomorrow..”.
I’m had great disappointment about that they want to settle me in to next year batch which is not there physically by the time. I disappointed and did not had any clue what to choose. In while I really had the best thought of my life, I told myself “I should not play there game, I should get back to where I came from….I should go back to IT”, and I changed every “should” to “must” in above sentence next fraction of the second and didn’t let any other thought distract my new idea. Then just went on with it which gave me a huge release. I felt the happiness getting back really what I wanted to go with again with in myself. Only that moment I got know I’m so attached to previous degree I left one day ago.
I didn’t wanted that Quantity Survey Degree that degree anyway I started liking Information Technology for that last three months, so in front of dean in the meeting next day I just asked to reverse my course and transfer me for the previous course. Funny within three days I change my knowledge stream of life to Information Technology to Quantity Survey then back to Information Technology.
In that short period of time I was under pressure not knowing the exact answer, I trusted my inner voice it’s computer that I’m going earn my life happiness not the number of bricks and cubes of sands. It worked for me more than I thought, looking back from now 2015. It grew from the scratch of a thought from that day till today which gave me huge amount of positive thoughts kept me at as respectable person in front of myself. By that time the gravity of that situation is so low but now feels so respect and happy making that choice.
We have to make choices in life. Life is all about making micro to mass choices.
Micro choices we make even have huge impact in life when it comes to long run.
Everyday we have to make choices can be viewed as good and bad for eyes of society. It become real hard to make choices with the traction of emotions and the gravity of the situation. Before make a one those any choices try listen to your self for fraction of second and try to be a part of that new idea applying your self in to it. It will fail you here and there, but still if you can hold on to the moment that occurring of that idea with the trust and passion in long term that micro moment of pure happiness is going to serve you in masses of happy thoughts. With computer and IT enjoy the same feeling again and again protecting that pure happiness occurred at that day, where I had to make decision at a quick time that’s going to change my whole life. I hated that lady lecturer who made me down that day, but now I’m really grateful to her coming with that idea to send me to next year batch and giving me that precious moment to hear my inner serenity.
That’s where I found that thought of go with IT, and hold tightly it even now with mush passion and love in my mind. It make me so blissful every time when I sit in front of computer. Each and everyday happening something good or bad just way the outward look of a thing. But how a person manipulate that within his mind and assessing it in to a life changing trigger to a new thinking process is a talent we should practise everyday.
With the proper practise is there with in you nothing good or bad will happen to you it’s only a situation where you have to hear your inner serenity and enjoy it.
journeyman 